Little Girls Hold Up the World

When I was a little girl, I envisioned I would be somebody important when I grew up. I didn't know exactly what I would do, but I knew that I would make a difference. As an adult, I'm still trying to find my way. I think that I've some across something special with this blogging thing. I love it because it allows me to use a lot of my talents, such as writing, organizing, researching, asking relevant questions, etc. I feel as if I've found a gold mine on the web. I think that is one of the areas that I'm gonna move into in the near future- encouraging other to use blogging and other new media to organize for their causes. I'm even thinking about turning this idea into a consulting business.

I think it is important for everyone to tap into their childhood dreams. I think that as adults we get caught up in life and forget to dream. I know I did for awhile. Over the last year, I've been in the process of tapping into those childhood dreams that I had forgotten. I realize that life is short and I've been letting it pass me by. I'm almost 30 and not even close to accomplishing any of the things that I always wanted to accomplish. I look back on my 20's and think, What was I doing? What makes it worse is that it's not like I can say that I was ignorant or that I was incapable. I just didn't do it. I got caught up in other people's lives and in other people's dreams. I should have stayed focused on what I wanted. I was too busy thinking that I had to be something-like a lawyer, or a teacher, or something with a title. It wasn't valuable unless it had some sort of a title or status attached to it, even if wasn't something that I really wanted to do. I am determined that my 30s will be different.

I must be honest and say that I am afraid to do what I really want to do. I have so many interests. And even though I'm working on a master's degree in speech pathology, I realize that this is not my calling. I've been asking God for over a year what my purpose is and I still haven't received an answer. Or maybe I have and it's not what I want to hear so I'm ignoring it. I don't know. Am I the only person who feels this way? In another two months, I will be 29. It seems like just yesterday that I was 19. Almost 10 years have passed since then and what have I accomplished? I will use the next 10 years, if God spares my life, much more wisely. I plan to set goals for the next year that are attainable. Then I'm going to set the bar higher each year until I reach my goals.

I encourage everyone to connect with their inner child and find those dreams that they may have forgotten. Signing out. Until next time. Peace.

Where Have All the Warriors Gone?

Today I was listening to a recent interview that Sister Souljah did with Davey D. It made me start thinking about the absence of strong leadership in the community. I grew up in the '80s and '90s when there was a plethora of young, radical black voices that were very visible. I remember when positive, political hip-hop was mainstream. I remember when leadership was not bought and paid for. I remember when there was a positive vibe in the community. Where have all the warriors gone? Well, according to Souljah, they were shut down purposely by white supremacist factions. And she is definitely right.

Seems that there are only a handful of "leaders" who are given access to the mainstream media. Persons such as Al Sharpton, Jesse Jackson, Michael Eric Dyson, Cornell West, ect. I always think that something is off when a black leader is always on tv because everyone does not have access. I think that those who are always on t.v. are bought and paid for. They are in the corporations' pockets. I don't know that I would call myself a conspiracy theorist, but definitely believe I that there is white racism and white supremacy. That is not a figment of anyone's imagination; it is definitely real. Signing out. Until tomorrow- Peace.

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Welcome to My New Blog!

This blog is an examination of my thoughts, feelings, and experiences. Those of you who are familiar with my other blog The Sowing Circle, know that I am very introspective. Hence the title, Introspective Black Woman. While my other blog deals primarily with issues affecting black women and children, this blog is strictly personal. On this blog you will find my thoughts concerning many topics from politics to books, to the issues that I am dealing with in my daily life. This is a journey through the life and times of an young introspective black woman. So welcome and enjoy.