Little Girls Hold Up the World

When I was a little girl, I envisioned I would be somebody important when I grew up. I didn't know exactly what I would do, but I knew that I would make a difference. As an adult, I'm still trying to find my way. I think that I've some across something special with this blogging thing. I love it because it allows me to use a lot of my talents, such as writing, organizing, researching, asking relevant questions, etc. I feel as if I've found a gold mine on the web. I think that is one of the areas that I'm gonna move into in the near future- encouraging other to use blogging and other new media to organize for their causes. I'm even thinking about turning this idea into a consulting business.

I think it is important for everyone to tap into their childhood dreams. I think that as adults we get caught up in life and forget to dream. I know I did for awhile. Over the last year, I've been in the process of tapping into those childhood dreams that I had forgotten. I realize that life is short and I've been letting it pass me by. I'm almost 30 and not even close to accomplishing any of the things that I always wanted to accomplish. I look back on my 20's and think, What was I doing? What makes it worse is that it's not like I can say that I was ignorant or that I was incapable. I just didn't do it. I got caught up in other people's lives and in other people's dreams. I should have stayed focused on what I wanted. I was too busy thinking that I had to be something-like a lawyer, or a teacher, or something with a title. It wasn't valuable unless it had some sort of a title or status attached to it, even if wasn't something that I really wanted to do. I am determined that my 30s will be different.

I must be honest and say that I am afraid to do what I really want to do. I have so many interests. And even though I'm working on a master's degree in speech pathology, I realize that this is not my calling. I've been asking God for over a year what my purpose is and I still haven't received an answer. Or maybe I have and it's not what I want to hear so I'm ignoring it. I don't know. Am I the only person who feels this way? In another two months, I will be 29. It seems like just yesterday that I was 19. Almost 10 years have passed since then and what have I accomplished? I will use the next 10 years, if God spares my life, much more wisely. I plan to set goals for the next year that are attainable. Then I'm going to set the bar higher each year until I reach my goals.

I encourage everyone to connect with their inner child and find those dreams that they may have forgotten. Signing out. Until next time. Peace.